I dont want to lose a friend.

I dont know what came over me recently, its like i'm having serious moodswing like wtf. I get pissed over certain small issues that i nv used to care bout. I really dont know what happened to me. Maybe an alien came to brainwashed me at night or something. Idk.

Sorry to thoses people i had throw my tantrums at. I'm really sorry.

Alot of things had happened.
I really shoudnt have meddled into so many damm things.
I get ticked off for no reason when i'm doing something good. I get faces when i'm eating. I really dont know what to say anymore. Since you want it to be like this, so be it. I dont know what happened to your recent post but I'm really damm pissed off. You want us to get out of your fcking life and fcking hell dont care bout you 'cos it your fcking life? So be it. I'm not going to give a damm anymore. Just leave me alone for some time ,kay? I really have no idea how to talk to you now. Your sight makes me feel so pissed off. I dont want to make you feel guilty or what but its just what i feel and i really need to get it off my chest for awhile. I dont know whether what i'm doing is correct or issit another stupid move of mine. But I just need some time.

I'm sorry if you think i'm too much or whatever but i really mean well. All of us do.
When we give you advice, we dont want you to follow it directly but at least makes us feel that you are trying to do it instead of giving us faces. Like the bag issue, me and yanli asked you to pull it up a little 'cos its really damm ugly this way but you just simply ignored us. We mean well, its really damm ugly this way.

I really dont know what to do now, I feel sick and tired of you.
After one year of bonding, we've been really great friends but now, idk. I need a friend that can make me happy and make me feel like she's trying to make me happy. I dont mind doing the other way round but I am a normal girl too right? I also need a friend. I dont want to be the one that is hyper all day long and people think that i'm crazy or whatever. I know that you can be hyper at times but its doesnt last long.

Remember the day we went cwp, you totally emo-ed all the way for no reason.
We went to eat and you didnt want. Fine, its fine with me. But can you at least drink something or what. You make us feel that we are negleting you or leaving you out while we enjoy our meal happily. Can you spare a thought for me? Have you ever do that? I doubt so.

I dont want you to feel that i'm scolding you or anything.
Whatever happens, I'm still your good friend and i'll always be no matter what happened.
I really treated you as my good friend and i shared everything with you. I know we have alot of differences but we trie to make ends meet. And that meant alot to me. I know you always give in to me and I really want to thanked you for that. I know I can be real stubbon at times , I'm sorry. I just want to tell you that, you are really a great friend to me.

I know you have alot of things to say to me now, whether good or bad, i dont care.